Not so cool...

During my adolescence when I was going through the stage of not wanting to be seen with my parents I vowed to be a "cool mom" when I became a parent. I was going to wear cool clothes and drive a cool car and my kids were never going to be embarrassed of me. Ha ha! That makes me laugh so hard now! I am now going through that time with Aiana. I come up with some pretty "cool" ideas and she looks at me as if I'm from another planet! Not taking things personal is the key to getting through this stage!


On this journey of parenting an adolescent I've already felt the urge to get on anxiety medication, but I do have great moments. Just this past Sunday I told Aiana I was going to come watch her sing and bring the video camera since she was singing a solo during worship. She said no about 100x, but we agreed that it would be ok if someone else held the camera :). I watched from the back of the room and found myself in awe as I watched her worshiping. All "coolness" aside. I know she is just at the beginning of a long journey of peer pressure, and all the other fun stuff that is a part of growing up, but I am so thankful for each moment she can just BE with God. After her solo, Aiana and I made eye contact and shared a smile. Even though she says it's not "cool" for me to come and watch, I could see that she felt good to see me there. I am "cool", by the way, she just doesn't have the capacity in her thinking to see it yet!...and she may not see it until she is a mother one day :)